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I used to major in Broadcast Journalism in university, when I got some chance to write news reports and articles. I became an English teacher after graduation and reporting has always been of keen interest for me. Mostly though I consider writing as a way of self-healing too.<\/p>\n
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Happy and Sad<\/strong><\/p>\n I clearly remember at that time I was studying in the city library during winter holiday. As Chinese New Year approached, there were few people in the library. I was struggling with my bachelor thesis, and what\u2019s worse, I had received no offers from the universities I had applied for my graduate studies. Suddenly, a notification popped up, telling me I\u2019ve got a new email. I opened it and had a glance at the title. It started with \u201cCongratulations!\u201d, from the graduate school of the University of Amsterdam. I knew finally my efforts had paid off! I was too thrilled to read through the email nor to continue working on my thesis. All I wanted to do is go back home and share it with my parents.<\/p>\n My mind goes back to the time when I was a high school student. I went to a boarding school which is far away and has many strict rules. 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